Motivation

When I have nothing to do for a long period of time, it makes me think about my purpose in life. This sounds depressing, but it really does. I don't know where my life is going to end up, I really need some determination to follow my dreams, but motiation has never been my strong point.

Anyway, since I have been signed off college (Beginning of June :/) I have been doing... NOTHING. Just the same old stuff.. most days are lazy days because I can't get to the places that I want to go because I have no driving license. But hopefully, (touch wood) I pass my test which I booked yesterday. It's still ages away but I've only had 23 hours of lessons, so by the time my test is, I should be ready for it. If I don't pass, it means MORE money and MORE time not being able to do what I want. Also, having no travel means having no job. Having no job means having no money, even though my mum gives me some every now and then. But I don't like doing that, because I do feel quite bad and would actually like some indepence!

Today my day consisted of:
Logging onto my Twitter account and trying to work out how the HELL i use it.

Washing my hair.. because I'm so lazy and only do it every 3/4 days... I know it sounds skanky but you trying having thick, long, annoying hair and the effort that has to be put it to blow dry it, let alone straighten it because it can't just be left naturally, i look like i've been dragged through a hedge backwards.

Watching TV. doesn't need to be explained.

Chilling out in my greg joggers which are soooo comfortable.

Going out with my friend who brought her first car today! (in my grey joggers)

And now writing this. Tomorrow will consist of a 2 hour driving lesson at 9 in the morning and then nothing afterwards.

Oh how boring my life is at the moment, I really wish I was back at college, socialising everyday instead of having all this poxy free time!

Summer holidays

Well, as nice it is to have a bit of time off college, too much time just takes the mick. Having too much spare time is linked to boredom, which could be linked to depression. I'm not being funny, but I do not want to develop depression though the summer holidays! I've been signed off college for over a month now, while schools have only just broke up.. meaning there is still a long time left. When i'm busy, I love all this time.. But when i'm on my own, having nothing to do, then time takes ages to pass. I really need to pass my driving test soon, but I know that wont be anytime soon.
All this spare time has made me turn into a Facebook addict. Anything too read is better then doing nothing. So... everyday, when I have too much spare time (after trying to be entertained by crap afternoon TV or watching a film i've seen too many times) I check the new photo's, the new status's and the new arguements that have heated up. Sometimes I feel like having my say, but what the heck, nothing to do with me.

Living in such a small town, there are no jobs avaliable. Having no lisence means no way of getting anywhere else, and having no money means no buses to anywhere. Trust me, I wish I had a job, having no money really gets me down!

So, if anyone has any suggestions, please.. let me know ASAP!

Hello, my name is Georgia..

.. but you can call me George. As you can probably tell, I'm new to this whole blogging thing.

I started this blog to express how I feel without trying to offend anyone, this can't be done on Facebook due to the bitchiness etc etc.
Anyway, recently I have patched things up with people and then fell out with other people.. and it's made me realise how much things have changed since Year 11 (a year ago)
I used to actually believe that having lots and lots of friends at school was the answer.. but actually it's not. I can now safely say I'd rather have just a handful of TRUE friends then just knowing lots of people (that probably stab you in the back whatever chance they get)

Also, I've learnt that when things are starting to look bad between you and friends/a friend.. then just let them go. Time changes everything and nothing will ever stay the same! And once you have let them go (by agreeing things have changed and people grow apart) then thats the end of it, be civil.. say hello.. don't just fall out for the sake of it.

Another thing about friends.. I know as everyone gets older, relationships become more serious, but this doesn't mean you completely ditch all of your friends. Yeah it's nice to want to be with your boyfriend/girlfriend all of the time, but when you get together with friends, just to chill out, you will realise that you really need them.. who's going to be there when things start to look rough in your relationship? Who has always been your shoulder to cry on?
Besides, being together with your boyfriend/girlfriend 24/7 will most likely cause arguements because your in eachothers space the whole time. You have your own life too, you know. It's not all about being loved up, just remember the ones that have always been there, or you'll end up with no one.